hey blog!!
here to post. just came back from band bbq. missed all the juniors. they are so cute. hahas. i think band bbq is quite short this year dunnoe why. usually after the bbq will be very late but this year about 8 ++ finish ler. hahas saw their new band tee. is white. quite plain not too bad. but didnt tot that they would chose white. but white good. won so warm. heard that they going to esplanade for concert tmr wish they will have a fun time^^

just now at ss lesson. ms khalidal said some encouraging words. made me really wanted to work hard. but its like even though i really want too my body and mind just keep rejecting. its really making me crazy. everytime wen i have test i will think why do i have test?? life is alrdy very short and i spend all my youth on studying. shouldnt school be a place for moral values and teaching us how to cope with the society and not teaching u how to think wat the Cambridge ppl wan to see in ur answer scrips?? im really puzzled. for now in my sec school life all i learn is how to understand questions and try to do the best way to get my marks. even though we have some cme lessons. but its only like telling us wat other ppl are doing and wat is it about. they didnt really tell us wat to do to have this morals. but all being taught are how to feel for the markers. whether our handwriting is too ugly or difficult for the markers to see and mark. or wat words are missing that will deprive us of our marks. everything is about marks and results. and im getting really tired. i feel like just give up. just do nth and stay at home. wanting to close myself for the world. so that the will be no more competition. and i can live the life i wan. just play and sight see and enjoy my everyday life. why does things need money?? if there is no money i won have to work. and if i won have to work, i won need to get good grades, if i won need to have good grades i won have to study.

i would still wan to go to school so that i could get to new other ppl. and noe about different ppl with different attitude. i also wish to learn different moral values so that i will be a better person that benefit myself and others. i dont think our future should e determined by that piece of paper. moreover. not everyone can cope with stress. maybe they feel very stress that day on exam and didnt do well?? thats not really fair. but it can be said that we should not let emotions get on the way. but i just feel that spending much of my time getting good results is not really wat i wanted. somemore not everyone will really use wat they have learnt. in other words, studying so hard now is just for us to get a pass to enter the good jobs. cos not everything u learnt is relevant to ur job.

ok said much. good portal to release my feelings. hahas
bye. love love