Term Break!!

Hello Diary~!
Long time no post, miss u sooo much. hehes. Before term break is always the busiest, everything is coming due. Many times i told myself to post but seriously have no time to do it. Anyway, now it is all over! and term break is here, thanks to my elective which only has 1 test. Lucky me! Cant wait for Chirstmas~~ Santa Claus is coming to towwwn~~

Alright, now for all the recaps.
28 Nov, went out for dinner with mom after school. Ate at this Japanese ramen restaurant, the food was really nice, but the portion a little too big. Wasted some noodles, felt bad about it. The waitresses was really nice as well.

This cold tofu was nice, but need to eat with the seaweed, if not a little bland. 

Oh, i personally love this salad, although there was nothing in it but a cherry tomato and the lettuce (i think its lettuce, i cant really remember vegeys name, although i love to eat them, heh), the sauce they use is very special and it doesn't feel as thick as the normal thousand island sauce. 

This is my mum's pork soup ramen, (i cannot remember the actual name of the dish), anyways, its really delicious, i love the soup!

This is mine, mine ( is their signature dish if i'm not wrong), i love all the corn. Really big bowl, cannot finish everything, sorry for wasting food. :(

This 2 little cute thingys are mushrooms. Love it.

And my ultimate favorite, chawanmushi, yummy!

After our satisfying dinner, mummy and i went pass a make up cum photo shoot booth, where if you purchase over $45 of their make-up products, you get a free make-up and hairdo. And you could tell the person to help you take photo and just pay for the photo. Actually, i am very tired already, been at school for the whole day, but mummy said she wanted to take the photo, since her birthday is just the next day, so birthday mum is the biggest. 

After 1 and a half hours, we our make up is done, and we got out photo shoot. The process of shooting was a little, ok quite embarrassing for me. As it is not in an enclosed area, it like just a small booth, where people could walk around. And the photographer keep telling me to do poses, which i cant really do well. I felt like a bimbo. But, the photos turn out well! so its worth it. But these are only the dual shoots, our individual ones are not complete yet, they still need to photo-shop here and there, so hope they will turn out well. Took a few photos of myself, seldom will have the chance to put on such thick make-up, must take must take. 

And its my first time wearing such thick make-up, the make-up artist basically put 3-4 layers of foundation on me. Also my eye make-up. Its blue, first time trying blue, also my eyes are really sensitive, so i tear up quite a few times, but luckily i managed to keep them from falling out. If not i think she will put more foundation on me. hah!

She used three types of blue on my eyes. Really nice, love it. But i think my double eyelid make the colours hidden. And the blusher, so thick, its like 3 hours after the make-up, my cheeks are still so pink. 

Now, its a before removal and after removal. After looking at the picture, make-up really makes a big difference. If i don't look at photos with make-up, i will feel that without make-up looks nice too. But after looking at them, really, i feel like saying' bring me some foundation, cover my black eyes!' hahahs. 

Ok, this post is full of pictures of myself. Zi Lian. hehes. Anways, need to rush off for class field trip. So shall write my self reflection another time. 

Bye everyone!

Love love

Wish everyone a happy day!

Artistic Day

Hey Diary,
Its been quite some time i last posted again. hehees, starting a habit is really quite difficult har.
Anyways, due to my not-very-long memory, i can only remember some of the many things that happen between this few weeks.
Let me recall.. oh, i remember clearly the many projects that i have to rush out. Really, projects are not my thing. i prefer to work alone. Safe all the hassle. But since i have chosen to be in HRM and Tourism & Leisure, which both have projects. I have to just say, i plant the seeds of my own tree. hah!
Anyway, enough of whining, let me "jot" down what 2 weeks ago, on 3 Nov, i went to Sin's CO concert, lots of people and it is really fun, went there with my favs, Peg, Kel and Scze. Went to meet them to chill-lax first before going for the concert. Walk around esplanade to find a suitable place, and lastly decided on Toastbox. And what a coincidence, i just had Toastbox for lunch today. heh heh. Of course, us girls couldn't let a good photo session slip by, so anyhow took some photos^^

I think i liked the French Toast the best! especially those with lots of egg on it. Heh

Siting beside pretty pretty Kelly

Peggy pretty and SczeYin pretty siting opposite us.

Hehees, after our teabreak, we talk a little more, about.... oh ya! about how we want to try going to clubs. hahas! u know turn 18 already, need to give everything a try. But don't know when will have the chance, seems a little loud and squeeze-y for my liking. Going off topic, hahas!

Went into for the concert, and it was awesome! really nice and fun! We have some interaction with the instructor, and he is so stylish. His suit is like a normal one with a penguin tail, but only one side have sleeve, like got torn off from a fight like that. HAH! Very stylish la. And he is quite funny. Reminds me of my band days, where Mr Lun will play with us when Mdm Yeo is talking, hahas! soo funny! Hai, i miss Seng Kang, want to go back and EAT noodles! i miss you, noodle stall auntie. We promised to go back and visit, but its been one year already, we still haven't visit you. Must really find a way to go back. *scratch head* Opps, off topic again. When my mind starts to wonder, i tend to think of lots of things. hah! Anyway, after the concert, we waited for Sin xiao niu to say Hi to all her fans. hehehees, and she took quite some time. So we start to take photo in the process. Can't just waste time right. HEH!

Start off with the two-by-twos

 And a cute shadow

Here comes the three-by-three, since Sin is still not done...

 And end off with the four of us^^

Ok, finally Sin finish her Hi and Byes, we meet her and went for dinner, and that poor thing, she had blisters all over her foot. Hai, why cant all pretty shoes be comfortable? And so lazy me, and foot-pain Sin, sat and wait for the others to buy food for us. In the meantime, we take photos! didn't really get a chance to take with her before the concert, so this is my chance.

Alright, we had a very full and satisfied dinner, and went home.

Today's reflection^^
That's the only event i had in these few weeks. But i feel so tired lately, my mind feel so exhausted. Everyday is a dread to wake up. Even if it is not very early in the morning, i still can't seems to wake up.  I think all the deadlines of projects and undone tutorial and assignments are packing up my brain. Making me very tense and easily frustrated. The more i want to achieve, the lesser i achieve. Sometimes i really just feel like giving up and don't care about my results anymore! I wonder why i seems to put in so much effort, but the others are like not on the same frequency as me, they don't seems to feel the urgency that i feel. They just feel so relax and calm. When i'm so agitated and flustered.

Anyway, i can't control other peoples minds, but i can control mine. So i shall always remind myself to stay cool. Yah, that's the way Ying Xin! you can do it. Believe in yourself! ^^ And its so weird, people always say im fierce when i am not trying to be fierce, and when i am trying to be fierce, they say im not. Like at my workplace, my colleagues always kid with me saying "YingXin, how come you like won't angry de? What will happen when you angry ah?" Then they will tell me to fake angry. So i will try to give a really fierce face, but it just makes them laugh. Its not a bad thing, i mean since im not really angry, but at least i am trying to be, but it doesn't work the way i plan it be. I was thinking maybe they say, "wah, when you angry like also quite scary ah" but no..  And when i am with my project mates, or classmates, i am not angry, but sometimes i just can't find anything to say, or i am very engross in doing my work, they will feel that i am angry at them, or that i am pissed off. Although, they mostly will say it jokingly, it still makes me wonder, am i so bad at expressing my feelings, that people tend to misunderstand me??

And it not only with my friends, sometimes even my family as well. As we are living together, and we are pretty close, but at times we still may get some different opinions, and these few years, i will end up giving in, since i don't see the point on fighting on my stand anymore. I don't know is it due to when i am younger, i don't usually give in until i get what i wanted or they just feel that i am hot-tempered. They always feel that i am angry or throwing tantrums when i give in now, and that makes me angry. haha! maybe i am hot-tempered. I just can't stand that people misunderstanding me. It is so upsetting that i am so close to them, and they feel i an throwing tantrums when i want to just let the matter go, as i feel they are more important. It's so frustrating on my part that i can't defend for myself. The more i try to defend that i'm not angry, the angrier i will get. So now, i will just resolve in giving in even before the matter turns bad. And that actually works! hehes! Ok, shall stop moaning about the past, and get back to work. Still got a long list of undone assignments. Wish me luck!

Good night!
Love me, Love family, Love friends!
Bless everyone and Happy Deepavali!

Busy Weeks

Hey Diary!
Its been long since i last posted again. It had been an awfully busy weeks for me. Totally no me-time at all. It feels like I'm living my life to the fullest. Hahas! Really miss my sleep till wake naturally days. But its ok, my hectic weeks are gone, because school holidays are over. I not happy or anything, but I'm definitely more relax now, without having my only work and eat-sleep days. Hehees. Many things happen during these past few weeks and i can't really remember everyone of it. So, i shall just diary those i remember.

I remember, i went to Universal Studios Singapore with Peg on a wednesday. It was super fun! Although my mum was thinking whether i was sane, as the rest of the week i have to travel there to work. And on my rare off days i choose to return there to play. But to a theme park maniac like me, going to a theme park will never be boring, in fact, the more the merrier. Hah! but i'm sort of starting to not feel the thrills in those rides, as i could roughly memorise where the turns will be. But going to theme park with friend still feels different and exciting. Especially with someone that have never been to one before. Shall not elaborate, if not may get whacked. Hehehe. And luckily that day the weather was superb, it was not too hot nor raining. Love it!
And we took photos with the mascots! here's one cute Alex, the new york lion! ROAR~

Okay, let me recap... oh ya! and i went for a wedding, i heard the bride is my grandpa's brother's granddaughter, so making her my distant cousin. Actually that day wanted to go and have a dim sum lunch. But mummy cooked that day, and so wanted to make it a dim sum dinner, but need to attend this wedding. But no loss for me, i still manage to enjoy delicious food. But poor korkor missed his dim sum, as he needs to book in. hahs! i'm a little bad. Anyway, i had a fun time talking and laughing with my cousins. hehees here's a pretty picture of us^^

And last Saturday, i went to work for USS halloween horror nights! Have been really excited about it. As its the only day i need not have to speak to the guests. I could just keep my mouth shut and act scary, although its not really successful on my side, as nobody seems to be sacred of me. And most of them just say i look tired. But i'm actually quite energetic, as i am super excited about it. I have been waiting for this day for almost a year. As it was really fun the previous year and our make up was more real and scary. Some adults were sacred by me! Muhahaha. But this year, our make up was... so-so not as scary as i expected. But still fun and it is much much more easier to remove this time. Last year i had that tissue thingy stick on to my face, and when i remove it it hurts like someone pinching me! and left my face red. But this year just 2 baby wipes and all traces of the make up was gone. So got good got bad la. Although its not very scary as least it is easier to remove. So.. let me show you what i looks like this year! Ta-DAaa looked tired yah. 

Personal reflection

After going through such a hectic/fruitful week i realise that if i want something, i will have to forgo something. So BALANCE, is very important. Like how i want to make use of my holiday time to the fullest, to earn as much money as possible. I will have to forgo things like going out, relax at home, or even my favorite hobby, sleeping. And when i am really tired about it, and it usually happens when i am getting ready for work, in the morning, i will ask myself. Why am i doing this to myself? why am i making myself work so hard, when i can actually laze as home, watch my korean dramas, surf the net, or even go out with my friends. But then when the pay comes in at the end of the month, i get happy, hahas! i see the fruit of the tree that i have been planting. Although it is not alot, but it makes me feel that all the sleep that i forgo was not for nothing. But it brought me to think of something else. Why do i need so much money for? Now all i can think of is how to save the money, how to not waste time. But if i do not spend these money that i earn, it will be for nothing as well. Its not like i could bring them to my afterlife. And time is not something that can have a second chance, once its gone its gone, there is no way for me to beg for a second chance. So i feel, i have to clear weigh my choices, which activities are more worth of my time. As if i forgo all my time to work, i will waste off my youth, my relationships with my friends and family.  But if i spend all my time to laze around, i am not making full use of it. So today's take away, is balance. Hehes, feels so noble now. hah! alright, so stop blabbering, good night people! 

Oh and i realise something, all my posts are posted at around the same timing, 8pm+ hahas!

Bless everybody.

Love my family for caring for me.

And sorry that i'm not mentally prepared to be a volunteer bone marrow donor. Bless those patients. 

LOVE LOVE!  

Hate getting sick

Hey diary!
Wanted to post more often, but seriously have nothing much to talk about. So could only post now. As usual went to work. And.... thats about it. Anyways, today as usual i went to work in the morning and brought my favorite Turkey Leg home to eat. YUMMMS! want to buy the nacho cheese snack that i saw in seven-eleven, but the outlet near my house doesn't have. So sad. :( Also, on the way home, while in the MRT i realize my phone decoration is broken. the cute korean doll is gone. All it left is the strings.

So, hinting me one thing, it time to change it. After looking through what i have i decided on this!:D

Its a little fish decoration given by my secondary 2 form teacher. She's my band teacher in-charge as well. I wonder if she is still teaching?? Anyways, i find this deco quite touching, as it is made by a China craft shop where they hire deaf people. I think it is great that they let the disable participate and earn for their own living. I feel even though they are disabled, they still need to be treated equally. They could still be like the others, have decent jobs and earn for themselves. And im sure the boss of the craft shop should be very kind-hearted and thoughtful. As he not only did not discriminate them, but provide them with jobs, where he could easily find better replacements. So he or she, deserves our clap! hehehes Anyway, a little off topic. But oh well. 

Anyway i had baked salmon, made by korkor and my turkey leg for dinner, also with some veges. As it is important to have a balance diet. heh! But truly doesn't feel satisfied that i couldn't buy that nacho cheese, so ate my slide cheese, thinking that it could help make it up. But it didn't. So when mummy said she wanted to go to the library at white sands to borrow books, i tagged along. As there is a seven-eleven outlet there and at the same time i could return my books. And mummy is going for her English lesson so she will need someone to bring her books back.
So... i went to White Sands, return my books, kept mum's borrows and i... Borrow more books for myself!

As there is too many nice books out there and no matter how hard i tried to remember what looks interesting, i just can't seems to remember them. So i started saving reading list in my phone. And it really make life easier for me, its easy to keep track on which book that i last found interesting, but didn't manage to borrow and also i could remember which continual i have not read. Last time, im always confuse whether have i read the book 2 or the book 3 of the sequel, but now, no problemo. However, i tend to accidentally delete my reading list. This is my third one already. hahs! Maybe i need to use the most traditional method, paper and pen method. : x

After, borrowing my books, i went to... Seven-eleven! and TAADA! i found the nacho cheese snack! the sight of it makes me happy, and it the last pack. How can i not buy it??!! So now its on my snack table^^ 

But, i can't eat it yet. I having sore throat >< and it hurts! I really hate getting sick. it makes me feel grumpy and uncomfortable and lazy and i could go on and on. Also i could eat whatever i want! So, now im drinking water like a hippo, like how i always tell me goodies, "Drink water like a hippo" thats the best way to get well. Well, that's what i think. And hoping to let my throat feel less dry and painful, i brought strepsils, it helps to relieve the pain when i was eating it, but after that my throat feels the same again. UNCOMFORTABLE! so i hope my panadol will help. i shall eat it before i sleep later, and hopes it will do wonders while im asleep.  Really hate getting sick, really really! now if anyone ask me what i hate most, i will definitely tell you, falling SICK! So, please panadol, please help me. One pill and heal everything. Fingers crossed.

Alright, shall stop here now, need to go for a bathe and go online shopping~~ i need a new water bottle^^

BYE BYE, good nights^^

Bless everyone with good health! don't fall sick. 

LOVE LOVE<3>

Movie date

Hey diary!
hehes today had a greeeat day with my girls! there are peg, kel, scze and sin.(Some of our other girls didnt manage to make it, but its ok! we still got next time) Went to my house for a movie marathon, which is not very successful, as we have pretty short attention span. hehees. And here they are!

Also we had a domino's pizza lunch. Really yummy! the new york crust is just nice, not too thick and not too thin. So yummy yummy. Also the bread stick is so soft and the garlic taste is just nice. And and the chocolate  lava cake, is just superb!

Hehes, we went to borrow some DVDs, but only manage to watch the first one. Which is the horror movie, its called Who R U? its a thai movie, quite not bad, but at the front abit make me feel like sleeping. hehes. After that we wanted to continue by watching Alvin and the Chipmunks, Chipwrecked. But... due to our short attention span, we all ended up either talking or taking photos, no one is paying the movie any attention.  

Seems like my bear and dog are pretty popular. hahas! Have them in most of the pictures^^
After few more minutes of trying to concentrate, we gave up on trying to watch the movie and went out to the living room for snacks, the girls ate their yogurt and pudding, as well as our sweet corn. Talked for awhile,sent kel and sin(as this girl have CO practice) to bus stop and went for dinner with peg and scze. After our dinner, talked more, but mostly on USS and guys. hahas! and sent them home.

Today's reflection!
i feel that i am sooo lucky to have a bunch of goodies, aka good friends. Its really nice to have a group of people where you know you can turn to when you are lonely/sad/happy. Even just talking to them, catching up with them is fun. And my goodies are just so funny. Everyone of them have their little innocent/cute side and their persistence/fierce side. They really make my day. Now that i think of it, we have been friends for almost 6 years, although sin joined us later, we don't feel any difference at all. I think it is really important everyone have a group of goodies, if not life is really boring, and you will not understand what i am experiencing now. It is just so happy. Also in a group, it makes everything more engaging. Even just drinking bubble tea or deciding what to buy feels more exciting. But of course, in a big groups, it is harder to coordinate. Everyone have different schedules and priorities. And it is hard to please everyone at the same time. So fights/arguments may occur. I truly believes our clique is no exception as well. But, our clique don't really have any of those before. And actually i don't really know why. hahas! I think maybe we are too mindful of the other's feelings. So even if we have some disagreements, we will chose to bury it and go with the flow. But i hope, our this being courteous, will slowly get fainter. Not totally gone, as we still need to respect each other. But maybe lesser you and me. But more of us and we. Think that our group are a whole, instead of different individual. hehes. Alright, thats all for today.

Byebye!
Bless everyone with happiness.
LOVE

I did something good!

Hey Diary!
heheehes, i did something good just now, when i reached home after meeting my family of nius, i saw that the dry rising main on my block level 1 is leaking! At first i decide to ignore it, so i went back upstairs. But while taking the lift, i feel so uneasy, i super dont like the feeling of the water keep leaking. Like either it will totally flood up the whole place (which wont happen as there are drains around), or the water will flow forever, and the thought of it scares me. So i decided to call the town counsel. Hehees, but it actually make me feel warm inside when i see other resident stopping to take a look at the leaking pipe. It shows that actually they also care for their estate. hehes. so Singaporeans are caring^^ anyways, im happy now. hahas.

Back to my day. Today i went out with my family of nius, which include peg moo, kel moo, and sin moo. hehes, as our a little blur peg moo need to sign her time sheet there and collect her IC which she left at her work place that we went Vivo. But dont need to feel bad, as we can always have cycling another time^^ Anyways, after reaching there and looking at the movie show listing, we decided not to pay for a movie that we are not interested. So we decided to give movie a skip. After xiao niu arrived, we went for lunch at Secret recipe. Bought the BBQ chicken, a little too sweet and sour for my taste. But i still manage to finish. Of course not all the rice though, heh. And we went for a small walk after our long lunch. Hahas, its like we starting eating with the restaurant full of customers, until the restaurant was empty. hehees. but i really love it, take my time to eat, talk and relax. Oh oh, and my nius help me decide on an english name and it is Ariellyn. Sound nice! i love it. hehehes, have been trying to crack my brains to decide on an english name for myself. But have not been successful, as im quite picky, i want a name that is unique and easy to pronounce but also starts with letter A. i have though of a few, but they sound pretty weird. However, today they solve this problem for me. Hehes. But im quite fickle minded, i hope i will like this name. Ariellyn ariellyn ariellyn. ok sound nice^^ hehes. We went for a walk at the Sentosa broadwalk, we didnt walk into Sentosa, but just only to and fro the pavement. hehes, took photos there, and have a great time looking at the sparkling sea and the blue blue sky. So pretty la! But i just love the look of it. If want me to be like in it, in the sea, i think i will want to get out pretty soon. Hahas, as the sea gives me a feeling of salty salty, sandy sandy, dirty dirty. Although it looks nice, i will not want to go near it. but the sky is different. the sky is sooo big and blue and free. must be nice!! oh except for the air pressure i think. which blocks the ears. ok, a little off topic. hehes. after soaking up enough of sunlight and heat. we went back to the comfort of the air-con. shopped a little and went home.

Today's reflection / imagination
While traveling back home on the bus, (dont know why i tend to reflect when im on the bus. hahas) the driver suddenly stepped on the brakes. Everyone that was standing flew. ok not really flew, but maybe jumped?! But lucky me, i was siting. So i thought, it is really very easy to get killed ah, just a little bang and off you go. Even though you always obey by the rules, you wont know how you get involve. staying alive is so difficult. SO...I must enjoy my every moment, appreciate my life, my parents, and whatever that i already possess. As i wont know when i will be gone. Some more this year is 2012. hahas!
And this little scene made me image a lot of things. (thanks to my imaginative mind) I picture in my mind that what if the bus crashed? and the whole bus topple, and everybody was trapped in the bus? What will i do? hehes, imagining myself as the heroine, i picture myself taking the little hammer that is always at the side of the bus and knock the glass window down. i will shout to the driver to shut the engine, so that the bus will not blow up. As it is always the leaking petrol get ignite by the motor engine right? and then it will bom! So by shutting the engine doesnt it prevents the bus from blowing up? hahas. And then everyone to get out of the bus of course i will get out too. then everyone will be safe. Therefore, happily ever after. THE END. hehehes

Alright, shall stop here. Feeling hungry, going to eat sushi!
Byebye, be safe everyone^^
LOVE!

Random

Hey diary!
How are you doing? Boring right, since i didnt post much. hehhee. So today im trying to make myself have this habit. Post first before i do anything else with the comp.
Alright, what should i talk about?? ok, why dont i start with what happen in the previous week. ok.... basically i cant remember. hahas!

From what i remember, i went to USS with XiaoYi and her family. OH! i was pretty surprise that her children could wake up early to prepare for the day trip. I was still lazying on my bed while they were already up and preparing themselves. And they are like only 7,8 and 2+ years old, children that need lots of sleep, and i who is already 18 was still snoring away. hahas! Anyways, we took the bus, and then the train to Harbour Front. As this time they didnt drove to Singapore, instead they took an airplane, even though
Malaysia is not very far away. But Xiao Yi says " I like it and my children like it!" hahas. So after reaching Vivo City, we ate at the food republic there, as everyone was quite hungry. But the food is like EXPENSIVE! Then we took the Monorial into Sentosa and off we go into USS! Had lots of fun there. but i feel its a little disadvantage for families with small children, as like little ZiSing is only 2 years old. There are quite some rides he cannot take. Like the famous and super amazing Transformers! Although later on when he was sleeping, XiaoYi, ZiChen and YueQi went in with us to take it. So its only a little pity that YiZhang didnt get to take it. Overall i had a very fun time with them. But it taught my something, only go to theme parks when your children are older. hehes. Oh OHH!! and the turkey leg is awesome~!!


Now, if im not wrong, last wednesday i went out with my beloved 8ights! at first we seems a little awkward with each other, i think because too long didnt see each other. We had a delicious lunch at Men-ichi and after awhile Helina left first. So its a little pity that we didnt get to take a group shoot together. But no worries        Im sure we will have next time. The rest of us went to the top floor of Nex to slack, chill, talk, photo photo. Thats basically the only place where we could bond without having attracting attention to ourselves. Hehes especially we are could a big group. So took many photos there. and then we went somewhere else. But i cant remember the reason for leaving. Why did we leave suddenly?? Cant remember, oh well. Doesnt matter, we went to a nearby Mac to have ice cream. Is that the reason? to have dessert?? ok. i seriously cant recall. hehees. Talked more over there, and our topic becomes more and more diverse. Hahas, i just love how we could talk about anything. hehes. Lovee them la!

And this wedenesday, which was yesterday, i went out with my bestie Peg, went to Rivervale there to print photos, as there is the cheapest of all, only one ad thing is the need to wait for 2 hours. waste my precious time. Anyway, ate a KFC branch together and selected some photos, went to print and went home. But thats not the end yet. Hehes, after an hour later we met at compass, to borrow books, we are the best book buddy as well. hehes happy with my new book supplies. heh! after then went back to collect our photos and went to peg's house to do up our besties book. Do do do.. but only like half-way through, we are tired already hahas. our stamina and concentration span seriously not very long ah. hahas! But still paste all the photos at their rightful places and ate dinner together. Thanks Peggy and her mummy for the dinner^^ and i went home. And i realise we didnt take any photo of ourselves. heh heh! but its ok, cos im seeing her again tomorrow(:

Today's reflection.
hmm.. while sitting in the bus travelling home after work, i saw all the cars zooming by, i thought to myself 'Im going to get my license and be one of them, without having to squeeze into the public transport anymore.' I want to have my own car, so that i can travel any where i want, at any time of the day. It brings me the memory when there is this once i asked my 8ights, will they prefer to drive themselves or get drove by someone. If my memory didnt fail me, i remember most of them said they will want to get drove around by someone. But im otherwise. Since dont know when, i have like the thought of me being my own driver. I think its just so cool la. I control my whereabouts. If i want to shop at nex, i just drive there. If i want to go Sentosa, i just drive there. SO COOL! hahas. of course, i dont have all the basics, i have no car, no license as well. But its good to have a goal to work towards to right?!

This made me thought of my dream. I know when we are younger, people will ask whats your dream, what you want to be. hehes and i remember when i was about 7-8 i will say i want to be doctor. and when i as 9-10 i said i want to be lawyer. hahas, now when i think of it im just so funny. But when i get older, this dream of mine gets blurrier, its no longer a clear image. and now its totally tinted. I cant see through anymore. So when people asks me what i want to be when i graduate. I will tell them im not sure. And it sort of scares me. Am i the only one that doesnt have a dream? Am i the only one that does not know what to do after i graduate? What should i do when i finish studying? Lots and lots of questions starts to pop up, but i have no answers for them.

But as optimistic i am, i told myself im clear of these things.
Firstly, i want to have enough for my family, i want to be able to give at least $500 each a month to each of my parents.
Second, i want a job that is engaging and secure, that i can work for many many years.  
Third, i want to be able to have yearly overseas trip with my family.
Fourth, my own car.

Now, what i dream for.
First, a big house where my family lives together, my parents and my brother. A 3 stories terrace. With sea view at the back. And a backyard where mummy could plant all her flowers. Also a room where daddy could watch all his forever same old movies. And also a pool table for korkor. and a mini swimming pool for me. hehehehes
Second, a loving family, where i can marry someone that loves me more then i love him. Sounds a little selfish. hahas. maybe i should rephrase. Someone that loves me for who i am, no matter what i do he could accept and loves me for it. oh, and at the same time be good to the parents, have a stable job that have good income. Someone that loves theme parks and roller coaster. Someone that doesnt get angry easily not arrogant, and is fun to be with. Someone that is well knowledge. Have some talents, like playing the piano. oh oh and also good looking, tall, if can look like Kim Hyun Joong, and we can live happily ever after... hahas! i wonder when oh when i can have this dream come true. i truly hope someone like this exists.
Third, a very close clique of girl friends, that will last me through out my life. Where i can call when i am having break ups, where i can call when i have happy news to share. Whom i can meet up to have lunches and dinners with. Whom i can call to be my bridesmaid. Whom i can go drinking with. Also whom i can share relation tips, children tips with. hahas. I think this seems like the most achievable one among the other dreams. hehes lets last long 8ights^^

Alright, i shall stop here for now. Hope that i can keep this posting habit continuing.
Bless everybody!
LOVES~!

I want to go overseas!

Dear diary,

hello hello! yesterday wanted to post but didn't manage to.
So i shall post the 2 days together.
Stayed at home yesterday, as didn't have work.
Spent my day watching Dream High 2, i was a little slow, hahas,
the drama is like out for super long, and i only manage to finish it yesterday. hahas.
Wanted to watch Big, and i have watched a few episode.
But i read the summary of the last episode and found that the ending was very vague.
So decided not to continue.

That's basically how i spend my day off, wake up, watch shows, eat, watch shows, sleep.
 Very boring, but i like it. Cos its very relaxing.

Today, as usual went for work. It's only half shift, so came back home early.
And spend my afternoon napping. hehes so satisfied!
Oh! my results were out too, it turn out well, happy!
Made improvements again, hope that my results will keep improving.
You Go Girl!!

Many of my colleague are going for holidays overseas.
Making my so envy. I also want to go!!!!
I'm sure it will be fun travelling to some other countries, to try their food and sight see.
Can learn so many new things, and experience so many things as well.
And it is much much more happening then staying in Singapore and work and sleep, work and sleep.
But now, i think i will have to wait for the next holiday in order to make my wish come true.
Sigh... It's ok! cannot be so negative, this time didn't get to go, next time i will go.
I can even start saving up for it. Although i don't have a place that i want to go.
But I'm sure any place is fine, as long as it is safe.
And allow my to sight see and have a comfortable hotel I'm fine,
Some more there is just too many places that i want to visit.
Too too many. and i will do it, i will slowly visit all the countries that i want to go!
Yes! I can do it. hehes feels much happier now.
Alright, shall stop here now.

Wish korkor all the best im army.
Wish mummy good health and don't tire herself out.
Wish daddy success in work and good health.
Wish i will always happy! and work for my dreams.
Wish all my friends good results^^

I'm back!

hey blog!
after being away from blogging for about... i cant remember like almost a year??!! Im finally back!
heheeees, have been very lazy about blogging, and just cant seem to find the reason to post.
So... left my blog hanging alone. hahas!
but anyways, i've decided to start posting again!
I will treat it like a diary instead, saying all my feelings and thoughts, so that next time i will have something that i can refer back and be thankful of.
its never too late to start a diary right??

Dear diary,
Today, i went to work, as usual. hahas!
nothing much happen at work, if not it is too insignificant for me to remember.

After work, I went back home (where else could i go?)  and mummy was getting ready to go for her English lesson. talking about it makes me a little annoyed, her English lesson, i seriously cannot understand why they give beginners such difficult practices. Shouldn't they start teaching them the basis first? like the alphabet, how to pronounce every letter and how to read simple words. But no, they give her difficult practices like listening and fill in the blanks. She does not even know how to word those words individually, how can she possibly identify through listening and fill in the blanks??!! Seriously cannot understand.

Anyway, after saying my goodbyes and bathe. I took a nap! hehee. feel so energised after that 1-1.5 hours of sleep. So just taken my dinner, which is my cheese kuay la pis (hahas, i dont know how to spell that) and my chips and also a cup of honey bird nest drink. Not very healthy, but mummy not at home, and i very lazy to buy or cook maggi, so just make do with whatever i have. hees.

Ok! so after filling my stomach, i need to entertain myself, so here i am on the computer waiting for my Korean dramas to load.

So its good to start posting again. makes me recall my day, and allows me to practice decode my feelings into words. Hope my English will benefit from this. hehee.

Alright shall stop here.
Love everyone
Hope korkor is doing well in army.
Hope mummy is benefiting from her lessons.
Hope daddy is not drinking and stay healthy.
Hope myself good results!