Hey Diary,
Its been quite some time i last posted again. hehees, starting a habit is really quite difficult har.
Anyways, due to my not-very-long memory, i can only remember some of the many things that happen between this few weeks.
Let me recall.. oh, i remember clearly the many projects that i have to rush out. Really, projects are not my thing. i prefer to work alone. Safe all the hassle. But since i have chosen to be in HRM and Tourism & Leisure, which both have projects. I have to just say, i plant the seeds of my own tree. hah!
Anyway, enough of whining, let me "jot" down what 2 weeks ago, on 3 Nov, i went to Sin's CO concert, lots of people and it is really fun, went there with my favs, Peg, Kel and Scze. Went to meet them to chill-lax first before going for the concert. Walk around esplanade to find a suitable place, and lastly decided on Toastbox. And what a coincidence, i just had Toastbox for lunch today. heh heh. Of course, us girls couldn't let a good photo session slip by, so anyhow took some photos^^
Hehees, after our teabreak, we talk a little more, about.... oh ya! about how we want to try going to clubs. hahas! u know turn 18 already, need to give everything a try. But don't know when will have the chance, seems a little loud and squeeze-y for my liking. Going off topic, hahas!
Went into for the concert, and it was awesome! really nice and fun! We have some interaction with the instructor, and he is so stylish. His suit is like a normal one with a penguin tail, but only one side have sleeve, like got torn off from a fight like that. HAH! Very stylish la. And he is quite funny. Reminds me of my band days, where Mr Lun will play with us when Mdm Yeo is talking, hahas! soo funny! Hai, i miss Seng Kang, want to go back and EAT noodles! i miss you, noodle stall auntie. We promised to go back and visit, but its been one year already, we still haven't visit you. Must really find a way to go back. *scratch head* Opps, off topic again. When my mind starts to wonder, i tend to think of lots of things. hah! Anyway, after the concert, we waited for Sin xiao niu to say Hi to all her fans. hehehees, and she took quite some time. So we start to take photo in the process. Can't just waste time right. HEH!
Start off with the two-by-twos
And a cute shadow
And end off with the four of us^^
Ok, finally Sin finish her Hi and Byes, we meet her and went for dinner, and that poor thing, she had blisters all over her foot. Hai, why cant all pretty shoes be comfortable? And so lazy me, and foot-pain Sin, sat and wait for the others to buy food for us. In the meantime, we take photos! didn't really get a chance to take with her before the concert, so this is my chance.
Alright, we had a very full and satisfied dinner, and went home.
Today's reflection^^
That's the only event i had in these few weeks. But i feel so tired lately, my mind feel so exhausted. Everyday is a dread to wake up. Even if it is not very early in the morning, i still can't seems to wake up. I think all the deadlines of projects and undone tutorial and assignments are packing up my brain. Making me very tense and easily frustrated. The more i want to achieve, the lesser i achieve. Sometimes i really just feel like giving up and don't care about my results anymore! I wonder why i seems to put in so much effort, but the others are like not on the same frequency as me, they don't seems to feel the urgency that i feel. They just feel so relax and calm. When i'm so agitated and flustered.
Anyway, i can't control other peoples minds, but i can control mine. So i shall always remind myself to stay cool. Yah, that's the way Ying Xin! you can do it. Believe in yourself! ^^ And its so weird, people always say im fierce when i am not trying to be fierce, and when i am trying to be fierce, they say im not. Like at my workplace, my colleagues always kid with me saying "YingXin, how come you like won't angry de? What will happen when you angry ah?" Then they will tell me to fake angry. So i will try to give a really fierce face, but it just makes them laugh. Its not a bad thing, i mean since im not really angry, but at least i am trying to be, but it doesn't work the way i plan it be. I was thinking maybe they say, "wah, when you angry like also quite scary ah" but no.. And when i am with my project mates, or classmates, i am not angry, but sometimes i just can't find anything to say, or i am very engross in doing my work, they will feel that i am angry at them, or that i am pissed off. Although, they mostly will say it jokingly, it still makes me wonder, am i so bad at expressing my feelings, that people tend to misunderstand me??
And it not only with my friends, sometimes even my family as well. As we are living together, and we are pretty close, but at times we still may get some different opinions, and these few years, i will end up giving in, since i don't see the point on fighting on my stand anymore. I don't know is it due to when i am younger, i don't usually give in until i get what i wanted or they just feel that i am hot-tempered. They always feel that i am angry or throwing tantrums when i give in now, and that makes me angry. haha! maybe i am hot-tempered. I just can't stand that people misunderstanding me. It is so upsetting that i am so close to them, and they feel i an throwing tantrums when i want to just let the matter go, as i feel they are more important. It's so frustrating on my part that i can't defend for myself. The more i try to defend that i'm not angry, the angrier i will get. So now, i will just resolve in giving in even before the matter turns bad. And that actually works! hehes! Ok, shall stop moaning about the past, and get back to work. Still got a long list of undone assignments. Wish me luck!
Good night!
Love me, Love family, Love friends!
Bless everyone and Happy Deepavali!
Its been quite some time i last posted again. hehees, starting a habit is really quite difficult har.
Anyways, due to my not-very-long memory, i can only remember some of the many things that happen between this few weeks.
Let me recall.. oh, i remember clearly the many projects that i have to rush out. Really, projects are not my thing. i prefer to work alone. Safe all the hassle. But since i have chosen to be in HRM and Tourism & Leisure, which both have projects. I have to just say, i plant the seeds of my own tree. hah!
Anyway, enough of whining, let me "jot" down what 2 weeks ago, on 3 Nov, i went to Sin's CO concert, lots of people and it is really fun, went there with my favs, Peg, Kel and Scze. Went to meet them to chill-lax first before going for the concert. Walk around esplanade to find a suitable place, and lastly decided on Toastbox. And what a coincidence, i just had Toastbox for lunch today. heh heh. Of course, us girls couldn't let a good photo session slip by, so anyhow took some photos^^
I think i liked the French Toast the best! especially those with lots of egg on it. Heh
Siting beside pretty pretty Kelly
Peggy pretty and SczeYin pretty siting opposite us.
Hehees, after our teabreak, we talk a little more, about.... oh ya! about how we want to try going to clubs. hahas! u know turn 18 already, need to give everything a try. But don't know when will have the chance, seems a little loud and squeeze-y for my liking. Going off topic, hahas!
Went into for the concert, and it was awesome! really nice and fun! We have some interaction with the instructor, and he is so stylish. His suit is like a normal one with a penguin tail, but only one side have sleeve, like got torn off from a fight like that. HAH! Very stylish la. And he is quite funny. Reminds me of my band days, where Mr Lun will play with us when Mdm Yeo is talking, hahas! soo funny! Hai, i miss Seng Kang, want to go back and EAT noodles! i miss you, noodle stall auntie. We promised to go back and visit, but its been one year already, we still haven't visit you. Must really find a way to go back. *scratch head* Opps, off topic again. When my mind starts to wonder, i tend to think of lots of things. hah! Anyway, after the concert, we waited for Sin xiao niu to say Hi to all her fans. hehehees, and she took quite some time. So we start to take photo in the process. Can't just waste time right. HEH!
Start off with the two-by-twos
Here comes the three-by-three, since Sin is still not done...
Today's reflection^^
That's the only event i had in these few weeks. But i feel so tired lately, my mind feel so exhausted. Everyday is a dread to wake up. Even if it is not very early in the morning, i still can't seems to wake up. I think all the deadlines of projects and undone tutorial and assignments are packing up my brain. Making me very tense and easily frustrated. The more i want to achieve, the lesser i achieve. Sometimes i really just feel like giving up and don't care about my results anymore! I wonder why i seems to put in so much effort, but the others are like not on the same frequency as me, they don't seems to feel the urgency that i feel. They just feel so relax and calm. When i'm so agitated and flustered.
Anyway, i can't control other peoples minds, but i can control mine. So i shall always remind myself to stay cool. Yah, that's the way Ying Xin! you can do it. Believe in yourself! ^^ And its so weird, people always say im fierce when i am not trying to be fierce, and when i am trying to be fierce, they say im not. Like at my workplace, my colleagues always kid with me saying "YingXin, how come you like won't angry de? What will happen when you angry ah?" Then they will tell me to fake angry. So i will try to give a really fierce face, but it just makes them laugh. Its not a bad thing, i mean since im not really angry, but at least i am trying to be, but it doesn't work the way i plan it be. I was thinking maybe they say, "wah, when you angry like also quite scary ah" but no.. And when i am with my project mates, or classmates, i am not angry, but sometimes i just can't find anything to say, or i am very engross in doing my work, they will feel that i am angry at them, or that i am pissed off. Although, they mostly will say it jokingly, it still makes me wonder, am i so bad at expressing my feelings, that people tend to misunderstand me??
And it not only with my friends, sometimes even my family as well. As we are living together, and we are pretty close, but at times we still may get some different opinions, and these few years, i will end up giving in, since i don't see the point on fighting on my stand anymore. I don't know is it due to when i am younger, i don't usually give in until i get what i wanted or they just feel that i am hot-tempered. They always feel that i am angry or throwing tantrums when i give in now, and that makes me angry. haha! maybe i am hot-tempered. I just can't stand that people misunderstanding me. It is so upsetting that i am so close to them, and they feel i an throwing tantrums when i want to just let the matter go, as i feel they are more important. It's so frustrating on my part that i can't defend for myself. The more i try to defend that i'm not angry, the angrier i will get. So now, i will just resolve in giving in even before the matter turns bad. And that actually works! hehes! Ok, shall stop moaning about the past, and get back to work. Still got a long list of undone assignments. Wish me luck!
Good night!
Love me, Love family, Love friends!
Bless everyone and Happy Deepavali!
